So much to do! I haven’t been on tumblr in days. I have my ap exams coming up and I desperately want a 4 or 5 on them. But I don’t even know what I’m doing half the time when studying for them. I don’t know if it’s just me, but I feel so confused not from the work but just from everything. There is just too much going on, it’s become difficult to even pick myself everyday. I feel like I don’t have time for personal enjoyment anymore. Actually, I haven’t even the time to breathe anymore, and I’m not even exaggerating. But I’m not going to blame anyone for this. It’s my fault. I was the one who put all this work on myself in the first place. I worry about not being good enough for any college not being good enough in other people’s eyes, or maybe not being good enough for myself. But the more I contemplate on this, the more frustrated I become. It’s difficult to explain, but when I think about something so much to the point where I can’t pull myself out anymore, I feel that it’s not just I, myself, who can not breathe from the complexity, but I’m taking the air out of my mind too. Wait…what the hell am I saying.
Stupid birds, go to sleep! Wait…I shouldn’t be talking.
My dad’s getting me an iphone 5 this weekend. I’m so freaking excited! It’s the kind of excitement that makes me want to pee in a circle and do a little dance around it. I’m sorry that was probably really weird…